Bored on Vacation

During vacation, college students usually fall into a few categories.

Doing Nothing

Some do absolutely nothing—just binge-watch movies and series at home. Others go out a lot, hanging out with friends, gossiping, and playing games like cards or dominoes. Rarely do those convos get serious about the future or anything meaningful.

Another version of “doing nothing” is going to the beach or parties—if you’ve got the money. It’s technically unproductive, but at least it’s fun.

Working and Thinking About the Future

Then there’s the second group: people who spend their vacation working for someone else in any kind of business, or those who focus on self-study.

Let me be honest—self-study is boring as hell. And going out with the same people doing the same things also gets boring fast (unless it’s the beach or a party... then I’m down).

I’ve already tried most of these things. I’ve done the gossip, the hanging out, the games. I’ve also done self-study. At one point, it was fun—especially back when I didn’t have friends and was always on my own. But now? Studying alone at home feels dull and pointless.

I lose motivation easily. What I really want is to be in an environment full of like-minded people—people who care about their future and actually want to start working on something now, not after college.

I don’t know why self studying started feeling so boring lately, but it just does.

Mostly because: 

• There are no deadlines for the projects I work on.
• There are no launchings or showing anyone anything (no feedback or reward).

The one thing I haven’t tried yet is working in a real company in my field (programming). It feels like the next logical step, but honestly, it's not easy to get into—and that makes it even harder to stay motivated.

If I want to work in a company I'll have to send my cv and portfolio to a lot of companies, minimum of 50 to 100, and finding this number in itself is hard. Also working in freelancing on a freelancer.com is hard when having no reviews or no one worked with me before on the platform makes it hard for anyone to trust me, especialy with the varaity of options and number of developers they can choose from which is a lot.

So I still don't know what am I gonna do in this fuckin vacation.